Okie dokie. This is my NaNo meter. It had to be done. Since I am doing NaNo once again, I want to know how much I am failing.

17677 / 50000 words. 35% done!

Whoo hoo! Let's just this shit started.

Yeah... I know I'm late. Fashionably late, thank you very much!

I am pissed. It's my fault the sky is falling.

My brother is getting a very low C in the class and it's my fault. His mentality? "At least it's not an F!" Yeah, ok, that's just dandy when you've actually worked hard on trying to learn something and you fall short. It's a way of saying, don't beat yourself up, try harder next time, study differently, ask for help, etc. No. He doesn't do that homework. He doesn't do the required tutoring. He doesn't care, so he's close to failing, and that's my fault. How, you ask? Isn't that his fault, you say? No, that's the logical response and nothing is ever logical. It's all my fault because I don't study, but I do the tutoring. I do the homework, but in small parts. I strive for an A but don't hate myself if I get lower. By the way? I'm getting a 94%.

It's my fault kids these days are fucked in the head and this 'the gays' can marry. It's my fault because I'm allowing the disease to spread. Some 'windbag' at the bank was yammering away at the cashier (grocery store and bank in one) about how the gays are the reason we're in the deep end of the shit pile. I listened to it for nearly five minutes while all of his tobacco, beer, beef jerky and massively hillbilly-ish style purchases were rung up before I snapped. I sort of wished him a long life but in an unfortunate way of a long death. Cancer is a bitch.

Then Biotech has been floating around work. That's a joy. She's been talking. And talking and talking. She's been rubbing my face in things that if it weren't for the fact that there are many customers around when she does it, I would rub her nose in Daisy's week old piss and make sure that I rub hard enough so that I hear the deformed nose of hers snap against the carpet.

School is close to over but it's not coming fast enough on the Math side but too fast for English.

Home life is getting worse by the day, and this morning I felt the best I have in months, so they needed to shoot that down. It didn't work in the way that they thought it would. Sure I am pissed, but I know I am amazing and so they're not taking that away. I'm deserving of everything I get and I'm going to get everything I deserve.

I just hope that the road is severely lacking of people, or else I may actually flip out.

W. Byrd

Not saying the pain is gone, three years of it just doesn't go away over night, but it's not as bad as I feared. It's all because you are so awesome.

I told you and you apologized. I cried and you wanted to make it better. I was, and still am, afraid you'd show me to the door and you didn't.

I'm glad it's you and not someone else, like the boy, because it hurts less. I know you still love me, no matter what I do. You just aren't in love.

Thank you for being so awesome.

<slightly creepy but I don't mean it to be>

In the off chance of never happening, I'm hoping that your feelings aren't one of the things you just won't talk about. At the very least I'd like to do the same to you as what you are doing to me, taking away apart of the pain. And at the bestest, I could still be the pathetic one, not completely over it and we can have those half Cylon babies.

But that's totally in the off case of never.

</slightly creepy but I don't mean it to be>

I fucked up again. I went and confessed shit that should have been locked in a box forever, but it's not like you didn't know. You did. I know you did but you are far from stupid.

It hurts like hell, yes, that the favor isn't returned, but I'll live.

If the favor was returned, though, and I find out that you just put the brakes on, stopping it, I'm not sure I can forgive you. This is the kind of pain that even I don't feel I deserve.

If it's not your fault, then you have nothing to fear, the lesser of two painful evils is to be by your side if you let me. If it is your fault... well, I'll figure out how bad I feel and go from there...

I would change what my fears, if that were possible.  I'm afraid of too many things and that's causing problems.

I can't drive. People call me on it. It pisses me off.

I take forever to eat. People keep pointing it out. Fuck off.

Zombies. Not real. Never will be.

Heights.

Clowns.

The list goes on. If I could change one thing about me and or my life, that would be it.

My last words? "Oh, fuck..." To anyone who will listen.

Their last words to me? "I told you so."

Yes. I would. Murders happen. Hell yes, if it was rent-free, but that's just not economically possible. As for the haunting, my house now has ghosties. I'm ain't afraid of no ghost.

Now if the walls start bleeding, if the Devil rapes me in my bed, my daughters head starts to spin around, beds start to swallow my family whole, etc then I'd be gone in an instant. But otherwise, it's the house of my dreams, I'm not leaving.

03:00 Played by a Nazi. Dumbass. #FF #

03:11 Awww, Gina found her son. #FlashForward #

03:37 I do not want a drug-allergy-death-surgery. I am not ok with this. Why is he? #FlashForward #

03:58 So the plot twist isn't a twist, I saw it coming but the actor behind it? Not so much. #FlashForward #

04:05 So, meeting isn't needed YET so she may freak out over nothing, but she has the right to know. #FlashForward #

04:10 People are blind. #FlashForward #

04:13 Happy Halloween, Blessed Samhain, Ghostly Greetings, and many other salutations. Hope it's a nice, safe, fun, and maybe sexy holiday. #

04:40 Singing FBI agents. Drunk agents. Always funny. #FlashForward #

04:46 She can't. I mean. The future's gonna come true... right? #FlashForward #

04:54 Alive! I pick alive! No dead kitty. #FlashForward #

05:02 Hands of Blue. Invasion of the fandoms! #FlashForward #

05:09 No one has caught the Kangaroo. Wonder, if it came from the zoo, what else got out. #FlashForward #

05:11 I don't want to grow my lashes. Leave me to my leprosy! #

05:16 If Obi Wan wasn't a Sponsor I would have thought he was a pedo. #FlashForward #

05:16 Or is that peedo. #

05:22 Oh. Shit. Terrifying Space Monkey flying poop kind of shit. #FlashForward #

05:36 I'm not sure how I'd be as a mother, probably a kind of fuck up one, but I want tiny, little ones of my own one day. #

17:41 Cheesecake. It's the devil.
-Steffy- #

18:16 I have no pants on and i'm out in public. It's strange.
-Steffy- #

21:50 My cheesecake was so good it was gone within an hour of being cut.
-Steffy- #

00:04 NaNo is supposed to start now.
-Steffy- #

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01:03 Finally got the dogs to calm the fuck down, they're not barking anymore but they are whining and growling at the back door. #zday #

01:34 Just heard a crash down the street. Wonder if mom stashed her scanner away before she went to bed. #zday #

01:58 Can't find the scanner, think that's a sign to get some sleep. Looks like I might have 4 cat sized bunk mates with me tonight. #zday #

09:07 Joey's bus didn't show this morning, so mom had to drive him to school. I had to walk, it's a mess outside. #zday #

09:08 Someone got a bit too drunk last night and wrapped their car around a tree. Cops haven't even towed it yet. Blood everywhere. #zday #

09:11 But, lol, a guy stopped, opened his car door and said "Come with me if you want to live". Yeah, right, mister. You're not Summer Glau. #Zday #

09:16 Thinking about heading over to Subway for some food but the parking lot is empty. The traffic school isn't even open. WTF is going on? #zday #

09:39 Think I just heard gunshots in the distance. Didn't think I was close enough to the firing range to hear them... #zday #

10:02 Ok, something is wrong and it's starting to scare me. There's screaming and gun shots are getting closer. Am tempted to lock the door. #zday #

10:17 Fuck me, Jesus! A woman just ran in here and she's covered in blood. Said some guy bit her. Boss is trying to get an ambulance here. #zday #

10:20 Told Boss that the lady needs to get the fuck out. I have seen this movie before, bitch is infected. The shit has hit the fan. #zday #

10:52 This woman is freaking out. I don't have any guns, but I will shove a knitting needle in her eye if I need to. Is help coming? #zday #

10:59 Mom just called. Everyone there is ok, told her to board up the house. Shouldn't be a problem, she's prepared for everything. #zday #

11:01 About to call @Pezwerewolf. Hope everything is ok there. The second I can, I'm on my way over. Better clean out the closet. #zday #

11:19 There wasn't any answer. They're all fine. I'm sure of it. They're just... busy... Shit. #zday #

12:35 Finally convinced Boss to kick the lady out. We're on our own now. No one's coming to save us. #zday #

13:02 Looks like we kicked her out just in time. She's pounding on the door now, but there's no urgency about it. And she's got friends...? #zday #

16:06 Oh, fuck. My boss didn't tell me that the bitch scratched the fuck out of her arm when we kicked her out. How long ago was that? #zday #

16:17 She's not going to go quietly, that's for damn sure. She's already showing signs of anger towards me. I'm hosed. #zday #

16:18 She parked out back today, wonder if I can get to her car before one of those things gets me. No one's on the road anymore... #zday #

16:24 Fuck this. She's going to turn soon, it's not stealing after she's dead. Right? Shutting her ass in the bathroom then I'm gone. #zday #

16:25 Gods, I hate zombies. Here I go. Wish me luck, all of the good kind. #zday #

16:37 Made it. One grabbed my arm but I think I'm ok... I think I had that scratch before. I'm going to be ok. #zday
-Steffy- #

16:55 Time for a crash course in driving. #zday
-Steffy- #

17:06 Just heard the radio mention Michael Jackson and live in the same sentence. Does that mean he's back, too? #zday
-Steffy- #

17:09 Hope that's some post of #trick. Don't know what kind of trouble he could cause now. #zday
-Steffy- #

18:37 My arm hurts. I think the fucker got me. #zday
-Steffy- #

20:47 I'm starting to fade. I don't think I'm going to make it. #zday
-Steffy- #

22:21 I'm turniing fast. I'mm going to try to get out o f town an.de get away fron my loved ones. #Zday
-Steffy- #

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00:46 @clocks Everything ok, sweetie? #

00:51 @clocks Do you still have time to do it? #

00:51 @PezWerewolf Gross. Who the fuck said that? #

00:58 @clocks Hope everything works out for you. #

01:00 @PezWerewolf I love that whole bit. It makes me cry. #

01:07 A plastic lock for a nipple ring seems lame, when there's a steel one for buck more. #

01:19 Should be sleeping. Will be up until midnight tonight. Work at 9-6. Then D&D 8-12. Why must you hide from me, sleep? #

01:22 Ten bucks is totally worth Write or Die Desktop Edition, especially during NaNo, but I so can't even afford that right now. Maybe later. :( #

01:41 I can't find my turtle partner and it's annoying. #

01:45 HA! BLO's are the shit! #

01:50 @xsandhearts Was there fighting? Bingo ladies are mean. #

02:23 11 #

02:30 @PezWerewolf Well he did get it for Buffy, you know. -_- #

02:52 Well, that was a shitty first try, but it was just the first shot... I'll take comfort in that and my new bracelet... -_- #

02:56 Am trying to ignore the chanting of "Die, motherfucker, die!" Coming from my brother's room. #

03:09 Sounds like I'm going to be a fatty forever. #

10:22 lol, I had oatmeal on National Oatmeal Day and I totally didn't even know it was a special day. I just wanted it's oaty goodness. #

10:24 @PezWerewolf Why is 'goodmorning' stupid? Also, for the first time, as in ever, I had to hit the more button on my @'s to find one from you. #

10:24 An hour and a half into my shift and I'm already wanting it to end. FML. This is going to be a REALLY long day. Wanna keep me company? #

10:48 Googled pumpkin cheesecake recipes. Figured you can't go wrong with the Cheesecake Factory recipe. They wouldn't make a bad one. Right? #

11:01 I've just seen a face... #

11:11 German Rap to Indian Thriller to Irish pub songs. I kind of love my shuffle. #

11:15 Just remember I have a Twitter Date tomorrow. Quite a few people do, actually. Whoo hoo for storytelling WotW style! #

11:41 @michaelceratops When in doubt repeat everything you just said? #

11:43 I have a paper due on Monday, a short story due a week ish after that, a short and 6 poems due in a month and I haven't done anything! Shit. #

12:48 @FLWbooks You really are just out to win my heart, aren't you? First writing books, now zombies? I think I love you. #

12:50 RT: @FLWbooks Are you undead? Or do you just love the undead? Either way, you'll love this list of zombie BOOKS! bit.ly/NdzIp #

12:51 What's funny is, I have like 4 out of 6 of those books, for someone who's afraid of zombies? I know. I'm a odd little turtle. #

13:51 Free to run around all day. Free to do it all my way. #

13:56 Making myself listen to Richard Cheese. #

13:58 On second thought, I think I want to listen to Presidents of the United States of America. Think thats SFW? #

14:02 Still can't figure out what to write about. It's a Dialogue assignment to make sure I can write how normal people talk. Yeah... #

14:03 Mom suggest to use one of D&D situations. That shit is not normal. "Izzalanti! Help us kill this gnoll! Use you're *insert magic term*!" #

14:11 Gee, thanks, lady! A penny tip! #

14:41 @momebie Because sushi isn't bloody enough to be around Halloween? It might be freshy killed, but it's not bleeding. #

14:42 OK, seriously? All this 3D shit is getting out of hand. I like a 3D movie probably just as much as the next, but scale it down a bit. #

14:55 @mordantkitten Ok, virtual reality would be kind of awesome. Being there with them? Non-staining blood splatter? That's my idea of fun. #

14:55 @mordantkitten Of course, I'm not too thrilled that they're making a new Hellraiser and that it's going to be in 3D like Cabin in the Woods. #

14:57 @DrWicked How about those McDonald's Cafe commercials? Those annoy me, too. The words are clearly being molested, raped, and murdered. #

15:26 @DrWicked That is what I truly meant, only it's more amusing when you say it. Let's see if they put THAT in a commercial. #

15:33 Because it's funny: RT @Dragontamerno3 @DrWicked How about those McDonald's Cafe commercials? The words are clearly being molested, raped... #

15:33 RT: @DrWicked @Dragontamerno3 Don't you mean rapé and molesté? #

16:23 I need more Anne H. and Zooey D. singing in my life. I mean, two gorgeous women with voices to match? Who wouldn't want that? #

16:24 Is Offspring trying to teach me how to make a Molotov Cocktail? #

16:30 We're anything but ordinary. You and me, the perfect team. #

16:45 Hey, look at me! I'm dancing crazy! #

18:49 Darling it's better down where it's wetter.
-Steffy- #

19:27 Not sure how I completely feel about these lists. That is, I feel special but in that geeky love kind of way, but left out here... #

19:32 @PezWerewolf That is AWESOME! #

19:42 I need sleep. Why is today Thursday?! #

00:00 Almost time for the shit to hit the fan here. I should get some sleep, soon. #

00:02 Just got back from D&D. The fog outsides really thick. It's got some weird ass smell, too. I don't like it. #zday #

00:23 My dogs won't stop barking and my cats are fighting to get in, it's starting to piss me off. #zday #

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Fuck me, there are so many and the moment I pick one another will pop into my head.

Male: If I'm going for someone who's broken I'd pick Billy from Dr. Horrible, because he's cute and broken. He's also sweet for a villan. If I'm going for someone who is not broken (using term loosely) I'd pick Spencer from iCarly because I'm completely in love with that dorky man.

Female: I'm going to say it's a tie between Tara from Buffy and Luce from Imagine Me and You. They're both sweet, adorable and it's great.

00:35 People need to go to sleep so I can go get food. #

01:26 Will probably stop paying for WoW, but Dad's freaking the fuck out over the idea. It's like I pulled the plug on Grandma or something. #

04:10 RT: @DexterAddict: Congrats Jennifer Carpenter for winning SpikeTV's Scream Award for Best Actress! tr.im/Dkgm #

04:16 @PezWerewolf Who are you getting kisses from? I want some. #

13:33 I have glitter all over me and I can't figure out why. #

19:25 @nodgarb That's probably it. I thought I got it all off, but I guess not. Stripper dust is like confetti, never completely goes away. #

19:25 @momebie Last I check my heart is still beating and I don't have the urge to suddenly cut peoples brakes, so... I don't think I'm a vampire. #

19:40 @momebie If I ever do become one of those sissy sparkley pussy vamps, do me a favor and light my ass on fire? I don't want to be that lame. #

19:41 @clocks I like pancakes. Not, like, always, but I enough their goodness. Why? #

19:46 @clocks It's the only thing that kills them, I think. You can't stake them, sunlight makes them sparkle... fires the way, baby. #

19:46 @momebie You're the greatest! #

19:47 @clocks I'll go to IHoP with you. Can't promise the gorging of pancakes, but they have hash browns and bacon, so yay. #

19:49 @clocks Again, if I become a stupid, lame, diamond infested vamp, I want to be a pile of ash before I've been dead a full minute. #

00:06 If you can't lay bricks with your oatmeal, it's not thick enough. #

00:08 Mmmm... Creamsicle. #

00:12 All of the Disney people are ridiculous, @selenagomez included. And it's absolutely adorable and wonderful. #

00:17 Eating oatmeal and I think I just heard my spoon crack a little... #

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06:49 There's a NM trailer on my TV and it's so painful it burns. #

06:54 Have been cleaning my room for the last few hours and discovered I have too much stuff. #

15:38 So much for 'day off'. #

15:39 RT: @freekibble: Go 2 www.freekibble.com, answer & HELP FEED homeless dogs for FREE! #

15:40 RT: @freekibble: Twitter Tuesday - follow @freekibble & @halopets & we'll donate a meal to shelter dogs for each follower! Spread the word! #

15:42 RT: @freekibble: With Halloween on Saturday, there's a lot of talk of spooky cats... Go 2 www.freekibblekat.com -answer & feed shelter cats! #

15:45 @clocks I'm almost positive it's for flavor. Just wanted to be sure. Cause, even if we are going to make you lose, I want it on your terms. #

16:44 @clocks So, as much as I'd like to feed you the cheesecake, Cap'n informs me that it's very much booze friendly and you can get drunk. #

18:56 @clocks It's ok. I didn't know and so I thought I'd ask. I'm still thinking about making the pumpkin cheesecake, booze-free. #

19:47 @clocks Or strawberries... or kiwis? I think you said kiwis... Anywhoo, I know. I'm just trying to include you in our reindeer games. #

19:48 A friend from HS just added me on Facebook only to unfriend me the moment she found out I don't like Twilight. And honestly? I don't care. #

19:53 @Tabz I know, right? I figure, if she doesn't care enough to be my friend over a difference of taste, then she's not worth my time. #

19:54 @PezWerewolf One of the trumpets, she didn't hang out in the group, but you probably met her in passing. And, no, you wouldn't care. #

19:58 @clocks Being my writing friend, I'm curious, are you're sharing my pain during NaNo? #

20:13 I can't find my pumpkin cheesecake recipe. Or my Oaty Bars... #

20:34 @clocks Well, if you decide to jump on board the crazy train, let me know. #

21:34 I can't find my Hocus Pocus. :( #

21:47 Ok. New bookcase in place. Gotta wait for the lazy man to secure it to the wall, then it's a race to fill the sucker. #

21:50 Asked my teacher for a word limit on my short story. Her response? "I don't know. Just hand it in and we'll learn to deal with it." #

21:51 I'm thinking 50K? Anyone else agree? #

21:52 @ElvenJedi I got mine off of Amazon last year for like $3, so it's around here somewhere... Probably with my Harriet the Spy. #

21:52 @ElvenJedi Thank you, though. #

22:00 I just got awarded free tokens on Pogo for playing a game on Wednesday... But... Huh? #

22:44 Purple, grey and white go quite well together... I know this now because my yarn vomited into a knot of colors. #

23:05 If I wasn't poor, all of this fucking yarn would be in the trash. I'm just so annoyed with it all. #

23:54 I wish I had money. I'm so fucking hungry. #

00:26 RT @miraclelaurie only 11 hrs left, thanks for all the bids! So touched. "Fight breast cancer with women who kick ass!" bit.ly/2ZVfH #

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02:07 @xsandhearts That kitty looks like my kitty... Are you taking pictures of my cat? #

03:10 @PezWerewolf Because I get you, yo. #

03:10 @xsandhearts Oh, noes! Make sure you get my good side? #

03:19 @PezWerewolf ^_^ You wouldn't love me any other way. #

03:24 Went to go make a quesedilla but found out we are out of cheese... Damn. And Echofon thinks I'm trying to spell 'questionable'. #

03:29 @PezWerewolf Because strange men talked to us? #

03:31 It's 3:30 in the fucking morning, who is call me? #

03:35 @PezWerewolf Zombies vs Cheese? I think I'm fine with the zombies. I'll probably grab some peppers to munch on instead. #

03:51 Ewww! Astor has a Twilight poster in her room. It's the Edward one. #

04:44 Scarves are easy, yes. But they are a massive pain in the ass. #

11:50 Need to nap, but apparently "napping is only allow if I slept at night". Does that make sense in any way? I think not! #

17:52 Doing everything in my power NOT to go to class tonight... #

18:08 @clocks Sweetie? Your 'no booze' policy, where does food with alcohol in in fall? Apparently I'm making a cheesecake with extra goodies... #

18:14 RT: @UnofficialME: Rinse, lather, repeat: #dollhouse is not canceled. Off for November, back w/ two episodes each Friday in December. #

18:33 *yawngrumbleyawn* Class time... #

20:10 Wow. My writing is lame for this assignment.
-Steffy- #

21:35 Having a dream is just the beginning. #

22:00 @clocks For which one? SG or FF? #

22:18 @clocks Oh, okie dokie. #

22:40 Long day. Wish I had a place of my own. Wish I had money for more pie, so I wouldn't have to be here. #

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02:02 @PezWerewolf Is the bottle still full or did you drink all of the liquid courage, Mr. Lion? #

02:07 @PezWerewolf Wasn't given the full picture. I was focusing on three elements, not four. Just glad you understood my mumbling when I did. #

02:24 Eating Gummi Bear's disguised as Care Bears. #

02:28 @PezWerewolf ...oh. I did. Huh. Can't, doing stufif. #

16:14 I'm either sick or Disney kicked the shit out of me. #

17:22 Thank you, Marvel Heroes candy for telling me that you've sold your soul to Marvel, can you tell me what kind of candy you are now? #

21:00 My mother is nuts. #

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01:38 Cap'n doesn't want to admit that I am made of awesome... #

01:51 @Dichenlachman I think we can say the same about you. #

01:56 @clocks You are, too, sweetie! #

02:14 Not even the owner of it for 3 hours and my new 'bag' has been Steffy-ized. #

02:22 Disneyland in the morning. Need to sleep soon. #

03:51 Someone needs to sing me to sleep. #

08:29 Waiting for Browncoats.
-Steffy- #

08:40 note to self: cement #nts
-Steffy- #

12:39 Some guy here looks like RPattz. :(
-Steffy- #

16:11 @pezwerewolf who? #

16:13 So tired. :(
-Steffy- #

16:47 twitpic.com/mt3e8 - Nuns! At disneyland! #

20:31 @pezwerewolf what?
-Steffy- #

20:34 @pezwerewolf everything WoWP. Also my phone keeps calling you sexy
-Steffy- #

23:57 Dead.
-Steffy- #

00:08 My feet smell of vanilla and sweat.
-Steffy- #

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03:31 I think I will be wearing #iCarly socks to work tomorrow and then #WoWP socks to Disney on Saturday. Wish I had shirts to go with them... #

03:48 I was mad at Cap'n all day, and afraid we wouldn't be friends anymore, now I'm worried about the same for @ddlovato and @selenagomez. #

03:54 Fans are nuts. #iCarly fans with weird ships and #WoWP with their creepy ships. And then the ones that cry over lack of love. Nutters. #

04:07 RT @picturecool Trainspotting #photo bit.ly/1qdvh5 (Is not one concerned for the ugly child? the car is a junker anyways) #

04:15 I have my calendar set for my worst nightmare. It'll set off a ringtone that isn't mine and I'll know my life is over. #

04:17 @PezWerewolf You are kinda gay. #

04:26 @PezWerewolf And now you tell the entirety of Twitter. Wow... And I bought you socks and everything... #

04:32 @PezWerewolf You will rue the day. Rue! #

04:34 @PezWerewolf I don't tell twitter about your embarrassing things. Because I'm nice. #

04:41 @PezWerewolf This is still very uncool. #

04:44 Besides, @Pezwerewolf, the Down's syndrome pastries isn't an embarrassing comment it's a sad one. How is that embarrassing? #

04:47 @PezWerewolf That just means your a grumpy person without tact. And that the pastries make me sad. #

05:16 No one in Lakewood is doing NaNo it seems. Or they haven't voiced that they are on the boards. Sad panda. #

05:20 @PezWerewolf Whatcha singing? #

14:47 twitpic.com/mn7g9 - New socks! ^_^ #

16:35 @PezWerewolf That was about Harmony, right? #

21:16 I love them. They're so cute. And protective. #Dollhouse
-Steffy- #

21:17 @clocks tag your tweets, bitch!
-Steffy- #

21:30 I hate Joss. Only not. #Dollhouse
-Steffy- #

21:32 Cap'n would let me die for a million bucks.
-Steffy- #

21:36 Topher is like a soulless hero.
-Steffy- #

21:36 #Dollhouse
-Steffy- #

23:13 twitpic.com/mpbdd - Plant juices! #

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The corny jokes are the highlight of my day. If I'm not making one, Cap'n is.  My boss doesn't joke like that, but she laughs when I do. My teacher... If she were to make one I would be floored. She's very high class (and pretty) so corny doesn't seem her style, but I'd laugh.

People don't understand the cheese is in right now.

07:21 Can't stop crying. It's become hard to breathe and my chest hurts. #

13:46 Hoping to make it through work. Canceled D&D tonight. Don't feel up to it. #

16:22 Feeling restless. #

17:23 Survived 2 hours in a zombie like state, faking the smile. Until the security guard noticed. Have been crying since. Need to calm down. #

17:56 Debating if I want to deal with people long enough to go to Dale's. #

18:10 Going to Dale's. #

18:32 @pezwerewolf Hungry? If you still need to get the fuck out, I'll stick around longer.
-Steffy- #

18:47 @pezwerewolf ok. Nevermind then.
-Steffy- #

19:22 Done eating. Time to walk home. Its nice out at least.
-Steffy- #

20:05 I have officially made myself sick. Great. #

20:45 Shower didn't help. All it did was make me clean and make my eyes feel drier than before. Going to curl up in a ball and cry some more. #

21:56 I hate this feeling. Why did I even say anything? #

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01:07 @PezWerewolf AWWW! That's so cute!!!! #

01:08 So, megavideo is the biggest douche in town tonight. But I suppose that means I HAVE to write now. #

01:13 @Dichenlachman This made me giggle. Thank you for your midnight wisdom. #

02:35 Our lesbian friend Annie Oakley is on Dexter. #

04:00 Finally finished the story. Printing for a quick edit. Should be able to go to bed in an hour. Get a 2 hour nap, off to class, then to work. #

09:31 Need to start bringing my sweater. -Steffy- #

16:10 It's been a bad, bad day. You know it's been bad when I threaten to stab someone in the eye with one of my ever present knitting needles. #

17:55 @PezWerewolf What's a bad idea this time? #

18:02 @PezWerewolf Right. One more thing you don't want to tell me. #

21:18 The Girl Effect: Invest in a girl and she will do the rest. Nice. #

21:37 I like this ghost. #

22:04 Hog wild #

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Stress from school, work, and relationships has finally caught up with me.

School: I'm not really sure I can touch the bar that my teachers have set up for me. I'm trying, but I'm a bit lost.

Work: Christmas is around the corner and my boss is acting like it's either never coming or that it's tomorrow. So, picking up a broken woman or trying to remember all of her demands on a daily basis isn't the easiest of things. But I will manage.

Relationships:  One friend needs to no longer be my friend and just fucking take all of the drama out of my life. I'm done. None of this on the fence shit.

And then I've been dancing, pacing and jumping over an argument with another friend, who probably doesn't care one way of there other, for some time now. It's the same argument I've had on and off throughout this relationship. And I'm almost done with it. I am always the one that starts it, because I'm the one that has the problem with it. She puts her foot down, says she'll have nothing to do with it. I let it go. She's just not comfortable with me knowing. I haven't earned her trust yet. Excuse. Excuse. Excuse. People need their privacy. Fine. But it's also nice to let others in. If I end up leaving, I will be the biggest wreck anyone has ever seen. I will be crying, not eating, either constantly sleep or not sleeping at all. I would be miserable. But going through this year after year hurts like hell, too. This is definitely a big fucking lose-lose situation.

I should have moved to Oregon when I had the chance.

00:34 @PezWerewolf Yay! I got it right! #

00:43 Right about now I really wish I wasn't single. #

01:15 I know living on my own would me that I would have responsibilities, but it would also mean I would have alone time. Meaning no screaming. #

01:24 Having a non drinker among the party-go-ers in my very small group makes "treats" difficult to find for everyone. Oh, well. I'll find one. #

01:35 Cupcakes, tarts or cheesecake...? #

01:39 @PezWerewolf Even if that cupcake may be a pumpkin cupcake? #

01:49 @PezWerewolf Noted. #

02:29 Wish this would finish downloading so I can pass out. #

03:05 Sleep apparently isn't going to happen. I think I'm going to go find some food. #

21:54 My creativity has gone out the window, along with it any sort of sweets we had in the house. #

22:05 A million miles away a butterfly flapped its wings... #

23:57 I only have 10 hours left to write a short story. That's right! I haven't even started yet. Cap'n is my hero, though. I love her sfm. #

00:10 My head is telling me that tonight will not be a long night and to it end now. While my school binder is calling me an idiotic slacker. #

00:11 Why is my iPod telling me that I shouldn't cross the street in the middle, in the middle, in the middle of the block? #

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01:37 One of my D&D playmates became an uncle on Friday, little baby girl named Skye. I rather like that name. Course, I am hippy-ish. #

01:43 Why am I getting spam messages that say "Rape your nanny for extra cash! Rape my nanny for extra blow!" #

02:00 RANPU! #

02:04 @PezWerewolf I don't know if they exist, Cap'n. You find one, I'll get one. #

02:10 Fictional characters have taught me that I am creative, creepy, crazy, blind, naive, stupid, sweet and possibly a bad ass when I need to be. #

10:58 How about that. I got an A on something I bsed my way through. Go me.
-Steffy- #

17:09 @PezWerewolf The moment the roaches pop up, I'm ducking for cover. #

17:12 Some dumbass nearly flipped his truck because he didn't want to slow down in the parking lot. Can't go 70 around these turns, douche nozzle. #

17:14 Looks like I DO get to go to Disney this weekend. Yay! Now I just need to figure out a way there and back... #

17:28 twitpic.com/m6slb - New non-practical shoes. ^_^ #

22:02 Sometimes my followers make me feel sad, not for me but for them. #

22:08 Considering buying #iCarly the next time I buy off of Amazon. #

22:11 @clocks Only the first season and the first half of the second season seem to be out on DVD, but I would love to marathon it. #

22:17 @clocks Okie dokie, I think that settles it. Next time I get paid, I'm ordering #iCarly on DVD. At least Season 1. Yay for dorkiness. #

22:18 @PezWerewolf Your font snobbery doesn't extend that far considering you have 5 million fonts. #

22:22 @clocks We almost always have an awesome time. We're just that fantastic. #

22:23 @clocks One of these days, though, you and Cap'n have to get together and Buffy it out when I'm not there. Srsly. #

22:30 @clocks And I can't help with the Buffy explosive-squee's, so while I might be tempting fate at taking away my spot as favorite, you should. #

22:32 @PezWerewolf It may not be healthy, but yes. You totally could. But it may end up being like BSG. #

22:35 @PezWerewolf Okie dokie, Cap'n. You can even watch it when I'm there, since I'm mostly aware of whats going on and I love it, too. #

22:36 @clocks *glomps* I don't know how to respond to that. Because I know you're right, but I don't feel that it is... #

22:37 @PezWerewolf I totally did. But I generally can hear how you say things without you being there. What did you stop watching? #

22:41 @clocks ...wait, did you just call me your favorite, too? #

22:41 @PezWerewolf I'm looking at my DVD case and debating on watching the movie, too. #

22:46 @clocks You're so sweet. This is why I love you. *cuddles* #

22:50 @PezWerewolf You tweet too much. #

22:51 @clocks Bitchiness is also loved, in small doses. At D&D I get to play one. It's fun. ^_^ #

23:22 Debating if I want to sleep or watch Dexter. #

00:25 @PezWerewolf Walkman? #trivia #

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00:52 Cap'n is teaching me the ways of Hamlet so that I might understand this movie.
-Steffy- #

05:01 I have nightmares.
-Steffy- #

12:34 If Freddie wasn't so pathetic and creepy I'd feel bad for him.
-Steffy- #

16:06 Cap'n just put on Rosemary's Baby.
-Steffy- #

22:49 Convicts are escaping from the zoo!
-Steffy- #

23:14 I want pancakes covered in ice cream.
-Steffy- #

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