The Random and Strange World of Steffy

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Sat, 05 Jul 2008 11:51:11 GMT

I hate nightmares :(
-Steffy-

Advice

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 21:15:50 GMT

I just got off the phone with Raquel Welch.

She's really sweet.

She just called to compliment our school, the friendliness of our employees.. etc.

And then she asked me how old I was.

"You can't be more than 18, sugar. You have the most adorable voice..."

I paused for a moment, got really rather red in the face and then thanked her.

"I mean it, sugar. Use it. Trust me."

Yeah... I get that alot....

Noob's gone!

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 16:57:37 GMT

Today is Noobs last day.

Yes!

I am so tired, but the thought makes me a happy Steffy.

I need coffee though, I'm beginning to lose the battle with my heavy eyelids.

I hate being so afraid to go to sleep..

It's been so long...

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 07:04:51 GMT

I hate it when my tarot confirms my unwanted suspicions. :(
-Steffy-

I can see the future...

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 20:42:38 GMT

Which 'Twilight'/'New Moon' character are you?

You are Alice Cullen
You are Alice Cullen. You are extremelly helpful and supportive in everything you do. You are very graceful in your movements, and it is very difficult not to like somebody as kind as you. However, you do have your moments....like when you see the future or become hungry for blood...

Quizzes

Thank the Gods, I'm not Bella -_-

Uber Klutz

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 08:54:06 GMT

Now, as much as it pains me (quite literally at the moment) to say this, but I finally admitted to myself that I really would die if I got a motorcycle.

I proved this by just being an everyday klutz in the kitchen.

I was (and still kinda am) feeling a bit angsty so I thought soup might help me...

I had been boiling soup most of the evening, letting it cook properly and stuff, so it was ready about an hour ago. I still had it on the stove cooking, lower now, to keep I warm so I could gradually get myself a bowl or two...

I got a bowl, went back to my room, sat down, grabbed the bowl to have in front of me to eat and then cat jumped in my lap for cuddles, spilling the soup all over my bare legs (it's hot, I'm wearing shorts, gorram it)

The soup was still boiling hot.

I now have blisters on my thighs.

I went to go clean myself, take care of my fresh wounds, bandage them properly because I'm far too aware of what to do in these cases...

As I was taping the gauze crap on, I was shaking and crying because it fucking hurt, I grabbed some scissors to cut the tape and do you know what happened?

Because I was shaking, I cut myself, a long (though very shallow) gash across my thigh...

I'm going to flinching and probably limping for a few days...

I think I'm going to get some pain killers...

Writer's Block: Home is...

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 06:39:13 GMT

Where do you call home?

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Home to me is not where I live at all. I kind of take my home with me, so to speak. Home is a place you go to when you want to feel safe, loved, relaxed, some place to let the days events go. The roof that is over my head at this moment I will never truly to able to call home because I don't feel safe here, relaxed, loved... It is my personal belief that when you go 'home' you should be able to walk in the door and feel the warmth and the security of the walls that surround you, and those who share it with you. I don't know if I have a 'home' right now... I used to think I did, but things have changes, people have been pulling away... Forever long isn't as long as it used to be...

Boredom is almost painful

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 06:16:34 GMT

Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 movies on this list. Copy this list and paste this as a bulletin. Then put an X next to the movies you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click "Post" at the bottom.

(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 3: At Worlds's End
() Boondock Saints
() Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
() Airplane!

Total So Far: 6

(x) The Princess Bride
() Anchorman: The Legend Of Ron Burgundy
() Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Pan's Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
(x) Saw III
() White Noise
() White Oleander
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
() The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total all together: 13

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
() Scary Movie 4
() American Pie
() American Pie 2
() American Wedding
() American Pie Band Camp
() American Pie Naked Mile

Total all together: 19

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x)The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
() The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch

Total all together: 27

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
() White Chicks
() Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
(x) Robots

Total all together: 33

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
() Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
() Deep Impact
() KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
() King Kong

Total all together: 40

() A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
() Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
() The Ring
() The Ring 2
() Surviving Christmas
(x) Flubber

Total all together: 49

() Harold & Kumar
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
(x) Sweet Home Alabama
(x) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
() The Whole Ten Yards

Total all together : 57

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
() Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
() Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
() Coach Carter
(x) The Longest Yard
() Gridiron Gang
(x) The Grudge
(x) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
() Son Of The Mask

Total all together: 69

() Bad Boys
() Bad Boys 2
(x) Joy Ride
() Lucky Number Sleven
() Ocean's Eleven
() Ocean's Twelve
() Bourne Identity
() Bourne Supremecy
() Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
() The Bachelor
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(x) Curious George

Total all together: 76

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
(x) Cars
(x) Darkness Falls
() Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
() My Bosses Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
() War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2

Total all together: 84

() Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
() Old School
() The Notebook
(x) K-Pax
() Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
() Ice Castles
(x) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old-virgin

Total all together: 89

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade

Total all together : 95

() BASEketball
() Hostel
() Waiting for Guffman
() House of 1000 Corpses
() Devils Rejects
(x) Elf
() Highlander
() Mothman Prophecies
() American History X
() Three

Total all together: 96

() The Jackal
() Kung Fu Hustle
() Full Metal Jacket
() Shaolin Soccer
() Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
() Shaun Of the Dead
() Willard

Total all together : 99

(x) High Tension (LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
() Club Dread
(x) Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicle Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
() 28 days Later
() Orgazmo
() Phantasm
(x) Waterworld

Total all together: 105

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
(x) Kill Bill vol 2
() Mortal Kombat
() Wolf Creek
() Kingdom of Heaven
() The Hills Have Eyes
() I Spit on Your Grave
() The Last House on the Left
() Re-Animator
() Army of Darkness

Total all together: 107

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
() Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
() Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
() Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
() Ewoks the caravan of courage
() Ewoks The Battle For Endor

Total all together: 110

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
() Animatrix
() Evil Dead
() Evil Dead 2
(x) Team America: World Police
() The World is Not Enough
() Die Another Day
() Silence of the Lambs
() Anger Management

TOTAL: 114/239

Almost half way there but most of them are crap so I don't want to watch the other half... (give or take a few)

Twilight and Me

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 19:56:55 GMT

I can't believe how addicting this shit is! I went to sleep at around 6am, to wake up at 7:30. I took a shower and went back to reading. I swear to Goddess, once you get passed the pure insanity of it all you get sucked in.

Also, I'm feeling a bit down today, all that addictive reading yesterday made me aware that my writing isn't actually all that good. It's worse than Stephanie Meyers.

That has made me a sad panda.

I've always dreamed of being someone as wonderful as Harper Lee. Or Maybe someone like Mark Twain. Someone that most people know. Someone that can easily be admired.

Though it seems now that the dream will always just be a dream.

So much for the lifestyle of the the rich and the famous...

On that note I want my boss to leave so I can finish (I'm like 60 pages from the end -_-)

Hammond of Texas....

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 04:37:18 GMT

I am a sad panda ):

That's all.

Reading

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 21:35:54 GMT

"The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed."

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Strike out the books you have no intention of ever reading,
4b) Put asteriks beside things you were forced to read at school and hated.
5) Reprint this list in your own LJ

1. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2. The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4. The Harry Potter Series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
~~6 The Bible~~
7. Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8. Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9. His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10. Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11. Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12. Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13. Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14. Complete Works of Shakespeare
15. Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16. The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17. Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18. Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19. The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20. Middlemarch - George Eliot
21. Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22. The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23. Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24. War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25. The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26. Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27. Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28. Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29. Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30. The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31. Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32. David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33. Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34. Emma - Jane Austen
35. Persuasion - Jane Austen
36. The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37. The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38. Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39. Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40. Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41. Animal Farm - George Orwell********!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
42. The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43. One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44. A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45. The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46. Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47. Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48. The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49. Lord of the Flies - William Golding***************!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
50. Atonement - Ian McEwan
51. Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52. Dune - Frank Herbert
53. Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54. Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55. A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56. The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57. A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58. Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60. Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61. Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62. Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63. The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64. The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65. Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66. On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67. Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68. Bridget Jones's Diary - Helen Fielding
69. Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70. Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71. Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72. Dracula - Bram Stoker
73. The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74. Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75. Ulysses - James Joyce
76. The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77. Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78. Germinal - Emile Zola
79. Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80. Possession - AS Byatt
81. A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82. Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83. The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84. The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85. Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86. A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87. Charlotte's Web - EB White
88. The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89. Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90. The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91. Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92. The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93. The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94. Watership Down - Richard Adams
95. A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96. A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97. The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98. Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100. Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

Looks like I doubled 'the average' person count there.... Which reminds me.. I have to start reading that one book....

I hate people

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 21:28:05 GMT

I had a nice, pleasant walk last night. Really. There were no Zombos, there wasn't an angry drunk man screaming at me nor was there an evil dog thing that followed me home and almost ate one of my cats. I didn't fall and fuck up me knee, I went to bed at a decent time and I got about 9 hours of sleep. Really. I had a lucky night.

I got into work today and Noob fucked things over again. I know for a fact that Mrs. Brown hates her, so I wish she'd just fired her already.

Then shortly after I arrived a student and her mother came in to sign up but the shit hit the fan,

Me: How can I help you?
Fucking Bitch of a Mom: Is there anyone else that can help us?
Me: No, ma'am, I'm the only one here, but I can help you. It's not a problem.
FBoaM: Yes it is. I refuse to let someone like you serve me.
Me: Excuse me?
Student: MOM! Why are you being such a bitch?
FBoaM: She's not... normal, sweetie. And she's poor. Look at her.
Me: What? Not 'normal'? What on Earth are you talking about?
FBoam: Is everyone who works here like you?
Student: MOM! Will you stop that?
Me: I don't understand.
FBoaM: Come on, sweetie, we're going to go to another school. This one is obviously some sort of scam.
Me: Bitch, please. What the hell is your problem.
FBoaM: My problem is you and people like you.
Me: People like me? Sweet, smart, sexy and all around nice person? Or are you talking about the poor bisexual witch thing?
FBoaM: Witch? That just tops the cake.
Me: Fuck off before I call secruity.
Student: I'm so sorry, I really am.
Me: That's ok, sweetie. You're mom is just a bitch who is going to end up all alone when she dies.
Student: *giggles*
FBoaM: Don't talk to my daughter.
Me: Shut the fuck up and get out. *they leave after a few not so nice words*

*sighs* I was going to talk about my feelings and shit but since that happened and my feelings are angsty I think I'm going to leave it until I actually do drop off the face of the Earth. I mean, this feeling tends to go away after awhile right? I can deal with it on my own...

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Mon, 30 Jun 2008 00:39:02 GMT

Almost 21 and grounded?! WTF?
-Steffy-

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Sat, 28 Jun 2008 10:32:18 GMT

Fuck me before I kill you.
-Steffy-

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Sat, 28 Jun 2008 05:57:43 GMT

If all the raindrops were lemondrops and gumdrops...
-Steffy-

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Sat, 28 Jun 2008 05:53:03 GMT

i think i'm losing my mind...
-Steffy-

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Fri, 27 Jun 2008 03:03:41 GMT

Why do people say 'you're going to be fine' when they know damn well you won't be?
-Steffy-

Small slightly happy update

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 20:39:57 GMT

Two things:

I finished Steffywrimo this morning. I'm taking a few weeks off (or at least one) before I go back and edit.

I don't think I'm going to get fired. I think Mrs. Brown is actually going to fire the Noob. She's pissing us all off.

With that said, I have to relearn how to count or something.

WHOOO HOOOO!

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 03:41:38 GMT

I CAN STAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously, I can stay.

Apparently, my cousin got busted for drugs or something.

Stupid crack whore (seriously)

Now she can't move out because she won't be able to afford it.

So my mom and aunt and grandma all convinced my father to let me stay.

I CAN STAY!!!!!!!!!!

My day

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 22:09:36 GMT

I've been in bed all morning. I haven't changed. I haven't eaten. I haven't even called work to explain why the fuck I just didn't show up. I don't care. I drank all the booze I stole from my grandmother yesterday, so I can't do any more of that. I'm crying and sleeping away the day. Mom came in about an hour or so ago and told me that something came up. She said that my aunt called and we have to discuss things when she gets home. Grandma called a few minutes ago and told me that shes switching my name for hers for this Friday. She had bought a plane ticket and told me that I was going to go for just a weekend to 'check it out'. She admitted to me just moments ago that it wasn't roundtrip. It wasn't going to be just for the weekend. Dad's idea. Anywhoo, so I'm not going this Friday. Guess they want to give me a little more time to find out what I want to keep and what I want to give/throw away. How thoughtful. I wish there was someplace I can store my books and dvds for free. I don't want to give those up. I can't remember the last time I was this bitter or sad... I don't even think I was this sad when Papa died, because I lost him years ago...

Fuck it.

I'm crawling back into bed.

This is really fucking up those last 5,000 words...

I dunno if I can do it...

Horoscope from June 19th

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 17:57:30 GMT

I got this a week ago ish and I wanted to post it but didn't have time til now. It just feels like it fits this month, with the Steffywrimo and all going on...

Jump into the creative process, if possible -- but make sure that you turn off your internal editor or critic for the time being. It's a handy feature to have, but for now it just gets in the way of the flow.

Now the bad news

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 05:56:06 GMT

Last night I came home from an awesome (and slightly awkward) weekend at Cap'ns to find my room mostly packed.

It seems that whether or not I go to Oregon, I'm no longer living here.

So I'm fucked.

I took the day off from work today to lay in bed and cry and drink a lot of alcohol.

My decision was to stay right here in this hell instead of move to a new one.

I wanted to stay.

I WANT TO STAY!

Now I doesn't look like I can...

I was unpacking things too throughout the day to make it clear that I was going to fight to stay here.

The folks are going to 'discuss' my decision.

I don't wanna go...

Good before the bad...

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 05:49:11 GMT

You all have to go to Cap'ns LJ right now and download this song.

Right now.

It is beyond awesome.

Really.

And then make sure you thank her.

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Mon, 23 Jun 2008 08:06:51 GMT

It appears a decision has been made for me... :(
-Steffy-

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Mon, 23 Jun 2008 01:07:22 GMT

Just 5,000 more words!
-Steffy-